Just me

Hi, I’m Laura.  And my life has become a cliche.

Or, one of those Lifetime Channel movies, perhaps.

At 40, I’m just starting to figure out what I want in life.  I’ve spent the last few decades of my life trying to be the person that I thought I was supposed to be — a rule-abiding, nice to everyone, straight girl.  I dated men, I had relationships… though, ironically, I was never especially good at it.  I just figured the fact that I was attracted to women didn’t mean much.  You know, since it wouldn’t have occurred to me to be gay.  I’ve never claimed to be the brightest bulb in the pack.

But – finally – almost unwillingly – I came out of the closet.  Just cracked the door open at first, and now there’s actually a fair amount of light being allowed in.

Despite the promise of some emotional toil, I’ve admitted and accepted that yes – I’m gay.  At times the  “gay” label seems almost like a jacket that doesn’t quite fit, but I’m working through it.  I appreciate the process involved, and know that this is just the beginning – the start of happiness and fulfillment.

Aside from this “I’ve come out and feel the need to talk about all the details incessantly because it’s the only way I can process it” slant to my blog, I’m also a runner, a sometimes-triathlete (when I can get myself to swim), resident computer geek (and – unfortunately – family tech support hotline) and yo-yo dieter.  Sometimes it might be hard to believe from what you regularly read here, but I’ve actually got interests outside of my “how to be a successful gay” challenge.

So, a lot of drama of my own making that I’m more than happy to put out there for everyone to get a good laugh at.  Queue the Lifetime Channel music, please.

3 responses to “Just me

  1. My god! You are so funny! I think you are doing a great thing writing about you and your stuff. That’s what I do over at my blog. Hell, there’s what, like, 40 billion of us out there. LOL. It’s amazing isn’t it. I’d love it if you’d stop by.
    peace and warmth
    Elana

    • Thanks so much! And you’re right – there certainly are a lot of different voices out there on the big ol’ interwebz… but I’m pleased you found mine. 🙂 And now – off to visit your site.

  2. good for you and I am sure I don’t have to tell you this but anybody who is not supportive of the real you (how you really feel so that they don’t feel deceived) anybody that does not support you should be kicked to the curb indefinitely.

    because everybody at heart is a good person

    but because of hateful people who really just hate themselves (whether they admit it or not) make others feel like it is not OK to be who they really are and that really sucks because the real people always are more than worthy and deserving to be loved.

    There is nothing better than the feeling that other people feel OK with being who they really are.

    you deserve to feel loved Laura and you definitely are worthy and deserve to love yourself.

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